I am not going to graduate in May. I am not going to walk across the stage at Riverside Church in a Master's degree robe. AND I am not going to worry about it.
I had a meeting with my advisor today, she seems to think I have something really good in my IMP and I shouldn't rush through it just to get it done and put away. So I will hand everything in past the April 15 deadline and the date on my diploma will probably be in July. This means that I will go to graduation, but not walk in the ceremony. I am coming to terms with it slowly but surely.
Another realization happened today, an A-Ha moment if you will. A wise woman who lives in Michigan told me I should not take the job at a school I only feel eh about. She said "it is hard enough working your ass off at a school that you believe in 100%." Which is the truth. So I am going to hold out for the other places to offer me work, and if no job is offered number 2 will start to be planned in the sense that we will stop planning for no number 2.