My mom commented at some point recently that I am overwhelmed by motherhood and she's right; I have no clue what I am doing and I feel like everyone else does. And it's not even the kid that overwhelms me, its the other stuff the housewifey cooking and cleaning stuff that I can't figure out. Is it laziness? Latent guilt about going back to work? When I am home with Joe i want to be near him all the time (even if that is just watching curious george with him), when he is not here all I want to do is nothing (or maybe nap and eat). This makes for no dishes getting done and the house looking like a pigsty. Yes the kid helps out, he is a master at helping to take dishes out of dishwasher, a star at getting laundry in the machine, and pretty good about putting toys away (or at least as good as any crazy 2 year old); BUT I still feel like I have no balance in this house.
Is it because I am tired from lugging around the extra weight of fetus around? Is it because, as my husband says, I have a higher expectation of myself because I think everyone else is better at it than me? Is it the hormones? Am I the only one who feels like they can't handle two kids,and get a meal prepared, cooked and cleaned up? I'd venture to guess no, but shit where are the other people who are less than confident about their mommying/housewifing skills?